I Need Him
Several months ago I was going through some drawers and I happened to find the journals that I wrote in when I first met Kane. I started to flip through it with many cheesy smiles, laughter and “Why did I write that?” expressions. I read several entries to Kane, as well.
A couple of entries had a lot of feelings for Kane and we weren’t even in a relationship yet, we were still hanging out and becoming closer. I just had that feeling that Kane would be the person that I could potentially spend the rest of my life with. And look at us now!
Kane checked off everything that I was looking for in a man. No one could or will compare to him. Kane was exactly what I wanted.
I always want Kane, but I also NEED him.
I need him because he prays for me. He’s been praying for me for a really, really long time. He was patient with God’s timing.
I need him because he’s honest with me and tells me how it is.—In nice ways, I promise!
I need him because he makes me feel beautiful. I could wake up in the morning with my hair messy on one side and the other side being completely flat. I could just get done working out and my hair is soaked from sweat and pieces of hair are coming out of my ponytail.
I need him because he respects me.
I need him because he makes me laugh. Kane doesn’t have to try very hard to make me laugh. He’s a child at heart and I love that about him.
I need him because he picks me up on my bad moments. There are never bad days, just bad moments. Kane knows exactly how to uplift my spirits, even when it’s just a hug.
I need him because he gives me such warm and tight hugs.
I need him because he holds my hand. We could be walking down the street, sitting down for dinner, watching TV on the couch, driving in the car or just standing around with friends and family. He makes me feel safe and secure.
I need him because he does the grilling. I don’t like to grill, I just like to make the sides!
I need him because he puts me first (aside from God). He chooses me first.
I need him because he’s a true man of his faith. He’s made my relationship with God expand SO MUCH!
I need him because he’s a family man. I’ve seen the way he interacts with Levi, Maddux, Brayden and Brylee and he’s such a great uncle. It warms my heart so much that it’s so hard to stop smiling. He will be such an amazing father.
I need him because he makes me feel like a kid again. I love when we do silly stuff and the things that we say. Sometimes it feels good to stop being an adult for a minute or two.
I need him because he’s more of the extrovert, as I am the introvert.
I need him because he comforts me. He always knows when something is wrong. I could give him a look and within seconds he’s hugging me and not having to say a word.
I need him because he listens to me. When we talk, he listens. He cares.
I need him because there’s no one else in the world that I would want to spend my life with and to build a family with.
When you hear people say that they have found their other half and the feeling that you just KNOW, that feeling is 100% true. It’s not just what you see in movies, it actually happens.
I hope that everyone out there has or will find someone that makes them feel the way that Kane makes me feel and to find someone that you need in the ways that I need Kane in my life.
I love you, forever.
