Counting My Blessings
“It's like it was yesterday, I was praying for a miracle. Scared to have a little hope and now looking back today, seeing all the things you’ve done. I can’t even add them up.”
I would have never have thought that I would have a section in my blog titled “Adoption Journey”, thinking about adoption, going through the process of adoption or waiting for adoption.
If you have been keeping up with my blog posts and have been following the journeys that Kane and I have been on, you know that we have struggled for almost 4 years with trying to expand our family. We have struggled with infertility and I have come to realize that maybe my body just can’t bear children and God is calling us to continue to love on our nieces and nephews, our friends’ children and to be adoptive parents.
That’s right, I said adoptive parents.
After my ectopic pregnancy, I was really praying to God on what to do. What should our next steps be? Should we consider IVF when I’m ready or should we think about surrogacy? I’ve had friends who have done IVF that had failed rounds and successful rounds and those resulted in beautiful and amazing babies! But I’ve seen the emotional and physical toll it brings on them. I thought to myself, “Can my body handle more trauma?” Trauma, I mean the hormones, the medications and the shots. And the mental and emotional toll…what if IVF doesn’t work? What if it does work but it results into another miscarriage? Am I ready for that heartbreak again?
I remember, Kane and I did a mobile order for Dunkin’ Donuts one morning after I had to get my wound vac cleaned out. As we were waiting, Kane mentioned that my blood pressure was high during the appointment and asked if anything was on my mind. I told him I just felt anxious and scared about the next steps we should do about expanding our family. We were really considering the next step to be IVF but I was scared of everything that I would have to do. My hormones were already out of wack and I was tired of putting my body through so much. I started crying and told him that I felt that God was laying adoption on my heart. After Kane and I prayed and had conversations and were open to how we were feeling about this next step, we knew that God was putting this on our hearts for a reason.
That’s when we started to pray hard over adoption and do our research. It was actually easier than what we thought it would be. A friend of my sister had posted on her social media page of a waiting family. I swear it was a sign from God because she kept posting their journey and sharing it. I finally clicked on their page and started to follow their journey. It was truly amazing watching it unfold. God is so good. I had reached out to the couple had conversations and they referred me to their adoption social worker.
After praying, having conversations, documentation, home visits, meetings, Kane and I are approved for adoption. It truly has been a blessing watching everything come together, having many prayer warriors and a church family who are praying for Kane and I everyday, wonderful friends and family and a great adoption social worker to work with.
We are excited to share this journey with you and we pray everyday for the child(ren) that God has picked out for us, the mother and the family. You can continue to follow our journey on here and on our Facebook page: Michelsen’s Adoption Journey
XO!!!
